Actually, looking at the grander scheme of things, this day was not crazy. It was....weird??? I had an audition for One on One Productions. If you are accepted into this production company, you are able to attend classes (which you pay for) and audition for casting agents all the while getting feedback. Not bad. Well, I didn't get accepted...this time. The monitor who auditioned me (his name was Michael and is a casting agent in New York-very nice guy...Michael, if you check this out, it was a pleasure meeting you and hope to see you again) gave me some feedback on my performances. He basically said (in a very nice way and I took his advice gracefully and very well) that my material didn't really seem to showcase me in a way he thinks I'm able to perform. He doesn't know me so he doesn't know my talent and skills, but it seemed from what he saw today that I've got something and that I can do it. It was a nice feeling to know. And while he was talking to me, he confirmed what I've been thinking for awhile...the material I have isn't good. It doesn't showcase me in a way that is marketable or talented. Basically, it sucks. He gave me some advice to work on things and it was great. I will definitely be applying it when working on my material. The second piece I performed for him though I do like. I feel it does showcase me in a good way. I just need to work on it (not going to lie- I blanked on a couple lines and had to ad-lib...what a GREAT feeling that is...Did you notice, Michael??? YIKES!!!). Even though I'm able to re-audition for them and did have some great feedback from Michael, I left feeling a little deflated and down-in-the-dumps. I did ask myself, "What are you doing? Are you sure you want to do this?" And while it's a really cruddy feeling, being rejected, I answered myself (not aloud...oh geez...just what I need...people to think I'm crazy) that "Yes. I do. Rejection is part of the game. You win some you lose some." You can't climb up a mountain and feel accomplished unless you hit a couple obstacles along the way. I just hope that as I get older I actually book jobs and am not rejected every 5 seconds.

Well, I came home, got into come comfortable sweats and hung out before going to work. Ahh...work. I had informed my manger last night that I had been offered another job that I will be starting this weekend. The new job cut into some days that I was at the restaurant so I told my manager that this coming week would be like a trial period to see if I would like the job and was to take it on full time (which, I probably would...let's face it...I hate waitressing). Well, what I wasn't informed of was to NOT come into work tonight. So I get to work thinking I'm going to have to close the place and get home around 12:30ish but not. The owner/manager (we'll call him "Joe") came in. Apparently there was some crazy miscommunication going on and I was to have been informed not to come in to work. Needless to say, it was slightly awkward for a minute but "Joe" has a business to run and I have a life and income to maintain. He was very nice about it and we parted ways, I feel, on a good note. So while one who may be reading may think, "Well that's not that bad." they're right. It's not. But it did make for the ending of a very weird, awkward day.

And I am a true believer in "Everything happens for a reason." I just signed up for classes called "The Path" (no, it's not a cult-like thing...trust me...). This will (hopefully) in 6 weeks, help me come up with a strategic and attainable plan for my career as an actress. I found out about this by chance after I came home from being let go of my job, and well, imagine if I had to stay there tonight. There was only one spot left for this and I have it. Therefore, everything happens for a reason. Hopefully a good reason.